It's been a long time since i updated this 'bersawang blog'....frankly speaking,im a natural writer since primary school...started from there i thought that i've planned my life well when i decided to be a DOCTOR.
TIME PASSED.....
I did study well when im f5..i did choose biology without any doubt by thinking that a FUTURE DOCTOR should master this tough subject..i can say that i nearly master it due to my to my deep passion in the field.In my class there're only 7 students that willingly choose bio rather than physics and that's a challenge to me cause i hate quite environment and my close friend,all of them pick the other subject..It is indeed a tough decision but i still do it.
SPM....(RESULT)
Alhamdulillah,all praises to Allah..i manage to pass this exam with flying colours and the most important of all..i get an 'A' for my dear biology.....i apply for all university that offer MEDIC COURSE...and also for scholarship....
YAYASAN PAHANG INTERVIEW....
Yeayyyy...=)..i've been called for an interview for yayasan pahang scholarship to do medic at UIA..im so happy and have been hoping to pass it..The big day come and im so nervous..in the room in front of the 'Big people'..i answered all question calmly and well but then a statement that make changes..
"we cant offer you this course because the absence of physics in your list of subject,maybe if you apply for other course we'll be approving that easily looking at your result"
Just hearing that, my face and i'm definitely sure that my world is gonna change just the matter of time...
but then En Amri the one who in charge for this scholarship said
" if i want to send you to jordan,do you want to go?The course that i'm offering to you is a crucial course not only in Malaysia but the world which is SYARIAH(ECONOMIC AND ISLAMIC BANKING).Think carefully and give me your answer on Monday but dont forget to take my number first" (ini bukan secara tepat apa yang die ckp..tapi mahfhumnya lebih kurang nii lh)
Yaaa....it's true..i've worked too hard to quit now..my journey is just to hard for me to let it go..after discussing this matter with all my family members..i've come to a desicion to go with the flow considering the fact that maybe this is what He had planned for me long ago...
fully in Arabic...i had a lot of fun during my first 3 months with all my new friends and old-long-lost cousin..not to forget my lectures..Then things started to change and lost control when i entered the ring(the course)..the real course of course..studying..new subject..new lectures..new environment..seniors..and all..
I started to feel that i've made a wrong move by studying here..this is not my field..i cant go on..cant move on and that kind of things keep on lingering in my mind...i dont know what else to do,up to one point i'm thinking of giving up..THIS IS JUST NOT ME...ECONOMIC IS NOT MY MAJOR..I DONT THINK LIKE THEY DO..
with the help of the people arround me i started to move on slowly considering the fact that it's hard......REALLY HARD...rather than searching why i should give up it's better for me to think why i shouldn't....WHY????
1)This is his plan for me just like i said before
2)I started to love my friend and also my lectures
3)They dont want me to go...and this is the most important reason..hahah
In the nutshell..believe it or not i started to feel something about this course..instead of surfing the internet for other purposes like i always do..i search for banking issues and terms...interesting isn't it???
Those who read...i hope you can take a few advices from me which is:
DREAM YOUR DREAM BUT DONT GET OBSESS WITH IT CAUSE YOU PLAN AND HE ALSO PLAN BUT HIS PLAN IS BETTER...GO WITH THW FLOW AND PUT YOUR HOPE ON HIM..FULLY ON HIM AS HE KNOWS THE BEST FOR YOU..WHY??CAUSE HE'S YOUR CREATOR....=)
